whats up...

So all of my reflections have been with a topic to reflect upon, and i dont really feel like a topic. I so badly need time just to think myself about all the things that are going on here. we have been so incredibly busy. The time i have had at computers i use to read e-mails and write my papers. it is kinda tough sometimes. Then i also use skype to call home, so i dont have much time to really think about things. So much is going on here. I am worried about coming home because i will go from doing soemthing every day, lots of impactful things that i havent had time to think about, to not knowing what to do with myself for another month.
This experience has been so different from el salvador. There are some really amazing people here. My family has been great and i have not had nearly enough time to talk to them and just be with them, but they are fabulous and there are some really great joys being with them. For example, yesterday i played in the rain with my host mom who is about the age of my grandma bonnie. The was great. Grandma, if you are reading this, we need to play in the rain together!!!! haha. It was fabulous. Also, as i have said before the baby is just wonderful. The people at the center that we go to almost every day are beautiful people who i also wish i had more time with. Two months is just not enough to really enter into real relationships with people and be together. It is, but not to know things that you wonder...not to hear all their stories...well, i dont think you can ever do that, but casi (almost, i think casi is a better word for almost).
The things that i am scared of tho, is all of these amazing things that i have done with such strong people, for example, we have heard people speak about sweatshops, we have been to fair trade places, we talk about theology and faith so much. I dont know, i cant reflect the way i did in salvador. I cant think aobut all of this. Seeing children malnurished and living in trash, working, who cant read. ...it has been so hard to see. I can´t really concentrate tho. sorry my reflections suck this time around!!!